I am a medical student, who is struggling with all aspects of his life and faith. More than anything, I want to become an excellent physician for the patients I will be taking care of in the future, God-willing. However, school has been difficult. I am one of an extremely small handful of relatives--immediate and distant--who has graduated college and the first doctor to be. Therefore, it has been hard to explicate my current difficulties to family. This is only exacerbated by the fact that my immediate family relies on me to a degree. Indeed, it is hard to let them know how troubled I truly am--they believe I am some genius that I really am not. I also struggle with my faith. I want Jesus in my life again--He brought me here. I know He will finish His work, but I have been struggling with temptations, including: partying, nonchalant language that is foul, drinking, willful lust, music, breaking the Sabbath, and so many worldly desires. I do not read my Bible much anymore, which is a part of the problem, but it has been an arduous fix. For weeks I tried to wake up early for devotion, but lack of sleep has caused me to continuously break this cycle. I know I could just pick up a Bible after class or clinic, but my hand sins against me: a few times I'll read a proverb, other times I will want to use any free time to just stop thinking, and most times I will frantically try to continue studying with the anxiety of knowing I need to perform well on my next test (which I have been struggling to do). Nonetheless, I know I have been blessed, and I know that my rescue is in God. Please pray for my salvation. I will pray for you--God's people--and the salvation of your enemies too. Thank you, and God bless.